I’m still processing this whole pregnancy thing. I suppose I will for a little while longer, I did after all only find out two days ago.
I remember with my first it didn’t really hit me until weeks in. I was probably about 8 weeks along and I was doing a prenatal yoga routine at home. I put my hands on my stomach (as instructed) and was told to connect to my baby.
I remember thinking: my baby.
And then the tears just started streaming.
I felt very connected all throughout my first pregnancy. I did a lot of self care and I sat quietly a lot thinking about the baby growing in my belly. I was very zen and I have to say, despite some annoying symptoms, it was a really wonderful pregnancy.
I hope to take the time to do that with this one too.
Overall, I really do hope that I can be present with this baby, both in and out of the womb. I know a lot of people worry about how their first born will feel, but, and maybe this is because I am a second born child myself, I want my newborn to get the love and attention that my little guy did. I want to try not to compare too much and take it all in as a new journey.
Now obviously there will be challenges. There will be two and I want to continue to be attentive to my first born (obviously). And you know what, I think my first could actually help to keep me grounded. Perhaps less anxious.
Good thing is I don’t feel anxious now. So that’s something. I’m not scared. At least not today.
But that might just be because it hasn’t sunk in yet. Maybe I should do that yoga video 🙂 Or maybe I’ll wait until I’m a little further along…